I'm like a shepherd in an old tale.
I may scream, but no one hears me.
You have no intention of dying!
I won't believe you!
Or what you say.
Dearest Maria.
Swearing that I would make you happy
I deceived you, and hurt you.
Kono yo no Hate
Episode 11 The Death of a Loved One
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Thank goodness the police made it on time!
But to try to kill a blind girl?
We know that our apology isn't enough.
Don't cry. Crying won't solve anything.
We won't be going through with this adoption.
And, she won't be working for you anymore.
We understand.
Nana! Are you okay?
I can't take this.
No, this...
I have no intention of prosecuting.
Nana...
You hired someone like me,
and even wanted me as your daughter.
I can't feel bitter towards you.
I should feel sorry for the both of you.
Nana!
And, she was going to be our daughter.
Thank you for everything.
I know you would understand.
Living in a world without color is dull.
I want to look up at the bright sun.
What are you doing?
What you're doing?!
Are you still up?
Yeah.
Bookkeeping?
Business is slow.
I've decided to close the shop.
I see.
Don't worry. I can support you.
I guess I'll go to bed, too.
Okay.
Let's go upstairs.
Watch your step.
Sunada Maria.
They'll find us in the country.
We should move to another urban center.
We'll live quietly.
Don't worry, I'll support the two of us.
And, if we don't run?
They'll kill us!
Maria said she would get the money.
She did?
But, I guess she abandoned you.
I'll get tickets for tomorrow afternoon.
We'll travel separately, and meet up later.
They may follow us.
I would never abandon you.
You'll be laid up for two weeks.
Who were you seeing?
Some optometrist named Yoshida.
Why?
I thought I'd introduce you to another doctor
who can perform the operation your sister needs.
Haven't you told your family that you're here?
It's not necessary, I can walk. I'm thinking of leaving today.
You did this to yourself.
I need you to find something out for me.
Why did she attempt to take her life?
Forget her, please.
Just check.
Immediately.
I went to your apartment but you had moved out.
Yes.
You're living with your mother?
Maria hasn't told you?
Did something happen?
No.
I've left Maria's place, too.
- Quite a while back. - You had a fight?
No... well, something like that.
Do you want me to help you make up?
That would be great.
Sure.
I'll tell her you're sorry.
Okay.
Then, I'd tell her you want to live with her again.
Can I say that?
Please...
Please don't forget me.
Remember that I once existed.
Don't forget the good times.
Shiro?
I will never forget.
Could you tell Maria that I said this?
Bye.
Are you going somewhere?
Hello?
I'm Maria...
That's my mother.
Dead?
No!
I'm her daughter!
The neighbor smelled gas.
He knocked, but no one came to the door.
Her daughter's here.
Sunada Maria?
Please.
Miss...
Is this your mother?
She left a letter for you. It had your address on it.
The man's been dead about five days.
- Cause of death? - We can't say yet.
But, he has two surgical scars on his abdomen.
- Natural death? - I presume so.
Double suicide?
I had told you your father was dead, but I was lying.
This man is your real father.
You probably don't know what's going on.
This man, Katsuragi Kazuto, your father,
was a young, talented screenplay writer at one time.
And I fell in love with his talent and energy.
But, good times don't last forever.
We spent a lot of money, and even went into debt.
And, you have no friends when times are bad.
He was always a lonely person, so it was hardest on him.
When I became pregnant with you,
he just stopped talking.
He couldn't speak anymore.
And, I was tired.
So, I married Nana's father
who was willing to take care of the both of us.
Sunada was a sweet man.
He really loved you and he treated you like his own.
But, I guess you felt something,
especially after Nana was born.
I met Katsuragi again, a few years later.
He was a dying man,
so I found him an apartment,
and decided to care for him.
You may not understand...
But I think there comes a time when nothing matters anymore.
Besides, he can't even live alone in the other world.
I want Nana to have my eyes.
That's my way of repaying Sunada for all he did.
If my eyes are suited for Nana.
Take care of Nana, Maria.
And don't live a life like I did, Maria.
Stay at my place until you have the surgery.
What about you?
I'll be late, so don't stay up.
Why am I having the surgery so soon?
The donor is a girl who's about your age.
Her parents requested that the receiver be the same age as their daughter.
It's been a while since she passed away,
but we'll be able to use her corneas.
Shiro's not coming.
I can't pay. I have no money.
No!
Kill me.
Don't kill him! Don't kill him!!!
Let me go!
Shiro.
Shiro!
Why didn't you come?
Why?!
I heard you'd gotten out of the hospital.
You were in the hospital?
I had food poisoning.
Sorry.
It must be hard.
No, I'm used to it.
I'm having an operation tomorrow.
I may see again.
I'm sure you'll see again.
A cornea transplant?
Yes.
Let's go out.
My mother died.
I haven't told Nana yet.
I don't want to upset her until after the operation.
Her ashes.
Sorry about making you come along.
No one wants to go there alone.
Your mother asked you to take care of Nana.
Then, you can't kill yourself anymore.
Don't worry about Shiro. I have a lot of connections.
You saved him?
Why?
You gave me Blue.
He was only 800 yen, not 20 million yen!
I'll decide the price.
You're a better woman than you ever give yourself credit for.
I'll give anything.
Anything.
I'll take you home.
I have a question.
The world as we know it has come to an end.
There's just one boat and you can take one animal with you.
Which animal would you choose?
A horse, a peacock, a tiger or a sheep?
- What's that? - Just choose.
The sheep.
What?
You must be lonely, too.
- Is Takamura Shiro here? - Who are you?
This is the police.
He's not here!
Run, Shiro!
You're under arrest for narcotics trafficking!
You!
Shiro.
- Shiro! - Get out of the way!
I remembered you were an ex-cop.
Sorry if I asked you to do such a weird thing.
Did you get it?
Tie his legs with towels.
This is bad.
Like Jesus.
What else?
He's really weak, so an IV would be nice.
But, you'll just have to feed him gruel.
He'll throw it up in the beginning.
You'll have to change him, too.
And, no matter how much he struggles, you can't untie him.
Either he survives or the drugs will leave his body.
I'll be going now.
Thank you.
A private detective is a flashy job title.
But, in other words, I'll do anything.
I was worried about you two, though.
Takamura wasn't arrested.
What's happening?
Who was that man?!
Did Maria...?
- Hello? - It's me.
Meet me at the hotel. I have to talk to you.
Come to my place.
I was thinking about you, too.
Really?
Yes.
How many years?
You have a prior record, so I'd say two or three years.
Can you mail my letter?
The Braille letter?
Yes.
How are you, Mr. Naito?
I'm having my cornea transplant today.
Regardless of whether it's successful or not,
this will be my last operation.
It excites me to think that I may see the bright sun,
the sunset and the stars that I saw as a child again.
But what if I can't see anything.
I guess I'm asking for too much.
There are many people who know they'll never see again,
but continue to live life to its fullest.
It must be that way for you, too.
There's one thing that I've promised myself.
If I see again, I will never forget what it was like to be blind.
Those who were kind to me.
Blinded by the bright sun,
I must not close the eyes of my heart.
Why are you doing this?
You want to go to a police hospital?
I have no appetite.
Try to eat something.
Maria.
What is it?
Do you still...?
Never mind.
I have a friend in Nagano who grows flowers.
He has asked me to come and help him there.
Clean water and rich soil.
You could concentrate on your pottery.
It sounds like a great offer.
Don't misunderstand me.
I'm not asking you to come along.
It's an order.
You can't love anyone. Not me, not even Shiro.
I wonder.
You can only love a man who loves someone else.
You loved me when I loved my wife.
And, you love Shiro now.
But, it's all an illusion.
That's not really love. It's just self-denial.
I will put an end to that.
I made this.
Will I find happiness if I go with you?
You'll find peace of mind.
I see.
You're so kind.
A kind fool!
What?
You won't suffer long.
Your lectures give me the chills!
I'll bury you in the hills of Nagano!
Now, you'll be with your wife!
The operation was a success.
If she has no negative reactions and the corneas heal properly,
she will see again.
May I ask you something?
What?
Did your mother really love the man she died with?
Or did she just think it was her fate?
You should get some rest.
I can't.
Untie me. Please.
Give me drugs!
I'll take over. You'll kill yourself.
I'm fine. I'm healthy, you know.
I thought you were just after a pianist's money.
I guess I was mistaken.
The next two or three days will be critical.
Shiro, come on!
Orion was loved by the goddess of the moon and hunting Artemis...
But, her brother Apollo was unhappy about that.
I'm freezing...
Please, release me...
Maria.
Shiro.
I don't know what to say to you.
Shiro...
Let's part here.
I've made you stay away from work so long.
I'll be okay.
Thank you, Maria.
Bye. I'll call you.
Shiro!
Goodbye.
Maria.
Dearest Maria.
If I had been more mature.
If I could've given up more things in life.
Would things have worked out between us?
I had them make it in a hurry.
You won't regret this?
Or is it something more simple?
Dearest Maria.
Was I just too late to notice it?
English translation by Nippon Golden Network
Transcribed from capture by groink www.groinkcaps.com
Episode titles & additional translation by calimerina